17072010

when all that’s left is memory.

有时，时机过了，就是过了。要保握。不要以为什么都会回复。自以为是，自以其然，不知所谓。

15072010

I cried cos of fear!!! today! money is not everything!

我愛他

他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊

對他唯一遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他 不再屬於這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*

如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛

repeat * – *

如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

20.03.10

I wanna work, work, n keep working. I know I’m nuts. I know. but wads new? =p

satisfaction is wad I like. n desire.

so if u think u can make it, n wanna make it. don just say. do it.

04032010

okay, i’m weak, physically.

i think its dued to lack of exercise!

tml, i need to go and swim! and get the sunlight. =D

27.02.10

its been a long time since i’ve update this place.

i’ve been bz. really bz.

wadever sense, or wadever things i’ve been doing, its hard to explain. =P

good fren/buddy is feeling down today. he’ll be fine. he is one of the two who asked abt me. and really know wad is going on. its hard to explain.

this is just my penny of thoughts.

its for a guy, a guy who has been really nice to me. i have to say, first of all, i’m really grateful, that you’ve been really nice to me, all the while. =D

but there are things which i wanna say we differs too much, and we wont be able to click.
1. i dread guys who play games and neglect the gal. When a gal is freaking tired, u shouldnt be the one who initiates to send the gal home immediately? (duh~) instead of last game, last game.

2. When u’re hungry, u asked me to acc u to eat, i’m like (not always) but most of the time, okay okay. right? today, i say i’m hungry, and i’ve no dinner at home, but your reaction was, i don feel like going out. how much is your self centeredness?

3. this i agree from a fren. you are not the faithful kind. and no, i’m not even giving chance to another one who has the tendancy of cheating on me again. do i look dumb? haha kidding.

back to my life, packed my room again.

Woohoo. super neat and new look. shifted the furnitures. and also thanks to mr chung who helped me with my fixing of my mother’s com. Really REALLY appreciate!

Mr Chung, I really hope you can smile more, for your own happiness, I know you know you are stubborn, but at the same time, you are one guy who thinks and feels like a gal, hence you wont go overboard. Still, try to give in more. I hope. And make things even better!!

*nights everyone*

26.01.10

i’m drunk again.

woohoo.

nightly. thou home. i drink alone. not alot of alcohol. but i purposely get it down fast. to get myself drunk.

im not happy. seriously. i know alcohol is my killer. but i don care. i love being drunk. i wanna tear. cos all the time i cant tear when conscious. damm~ bitch! freaking irritated with my own character. i know im not happy. money is really not everything. i can do well. but so? i’m not happy. not cos i have money. but…

i did not handle things well.

farking irritated!!! arghh!!!

cure my mood. cure my feelings. =D

10.01.10

the date today is really nice huh.

realised in life. there are REALLY many times your one decision can change many or maybe even everything else.

I made mine a couple of times wrongly. and i kinda regretted them. Or rather many times regretted them. I’m one harsh, rush, impulse person. I have the superbly high tendency to make hasty decisions at many times in life. I’m not saying thats me, thats my character. With good warnings, and precautions from people whom I care, and care for me, I’m willing to make the change, and try to think before indulging into anything. I’m not refering to my relationship now. Cos I’m really happy with him.

I’ve made anoother decision today to salvage things. I want to make you feel better. I want not to hear from others that “she is not as happy as before”, or thingss like “when your laughter is gone, her laughter also submerges”. I really put myself responsible for all these. I’m the cause. I know. I’ll change if possible.

A fully packed week ahead. I’m escaping from City life, first to a mini “honeymoon”, enjoying life and quiet moments with him. Then back in the morning to go out, have fun, set goals for the upcoming life!

I’m trying to make sure that I’m only gonna be bothered with myself, and my life. Caring too much may not be a good thing. And I meant it seriously!

Whatever comes, happens, Thanks people for everything!!!

*hugs*

merry christmas

eil.kris.hoting.meishan.xinghui

191209

last weekend of emo.

either i continue emo and leave, or i’ll buck up and work again.

just like they always say, make it or break it. tell me ba.

i just realised that i can stare in blank or empty space for hours, not moving, not making a single sound/noise, and worst of all, donno where my thoughts are heading to. i’m lost. finally. in life. ha~ this is a biggest joke to me.

i’ll just flow/float/fly with my thoughts, with my environment, with me myself and i.

wave to me when u look up into the air. *wave*